- Tricia La BellaKeymaster20/04/2020 at 9:58 pmPost count: 34
I will remember;
Our second poetry evening, 20/4/20.
We created a poem together as a group, inspired by a poem about our time in isolation and the Coronavirus.
It shows when we share what’s in our hearts, the words have power.
I will remember…
how fragile life is
little things matter
variation in adaptation by governments, countries, people, organisations and communities
my time of togetherness spending time over a wonderful cooked meal having conversations with my close loved ones – my family .
the confusion of realities
Thank you Kay, Gloria, Claudine, Desak, Nigel and TriciaTricia La BellaKeymaster23/04/2020 at 2:45 pmPost count: 34
Believe that things happen for a reason
Everyone has their moment
Learn to accept what is
Imagine a better world
Every moment matters
have your Voice – however it sounds
Emerge a better you
Gloria…Tricia La BellaKeymaster06/05/2020 at 7:20 amPost count: 34
Hi everyone, I hope to post our Bali poem and bring Desak’s too. Just looking at word limit on the forum.Tricia La BellaKeymaster18/05/2020 at 11:16 amPost count: 34
Commentary of the mind
It has to be done
Lists of lists
Let me clear it
Write it down
Somehow it works
Create busyness in my own mind
Full moon it must be you
Restless with the full moon
Is it the moon
Letting go what do I need to let go
Empty my mind
Planning planning planning
All chambers in my brain
Take me away
Me and my camera
What was I thinking I can’t remember
Obviously not important
How do I manage chaos
How do I keep them
Feel what is important
Deal with it as it feels
I can’t process it!
Mind only working on what is in front of me right now
Don’t try and clear it
Let it happen
One thing at a time
In the moment
Right here and now
So much to do
But please be with me
Not what is next
Calm it down
I need my lists – do I
All happening at once
It all exists at once
I need to hold on to it all
There’s so much
I’ll look at it tomorrow
It got done
Get in your body and do one thing a day
What do I feel like today
Every now and again
Do what you need
What would happen if…
I let go of my list
And trust that I will get it done – in the time it is arrives
Right now reallyTricia La BellaKeymaster18/05/2020 at 11:18 amPost count: 34
My Why of Bali In A Jar poetry
I was here for a while
Feeling all alone…
And missing home
Something so authentic
Something so exotic
Bali In A Jar
I know it will go far
Bridging the Bali connection
It requires some perfection
Even becomes the talk in every bar
Everywhere like a star!Tricia La BellaKeymaster18/05/2020 at 7:12 pmPost count: 34
Fear is unfrozen fun
If you don’t let go you can’t have fun
Let go of the past
Fear about the future
Out side your comfort zone
Process the past
Step into the new day
Being in the moment
What is letting go
I don’t know
Being brave to move forward
Find the way
The way to let go
If We can’t forgive ourselves
We Hold on to relive events.
How do you forgive
Opening new doors
Uncertainty of what is ahead
Know your self
Dress up because I can
Where is it
Bring back the music
What is letting
Why we do worry future
I have little control over anything
I have no fear of dying
I am willing to adjust to anything
Going with the flow
I went from zero to hero
Plan not to plan
Holding onto clutter
Accepting things you can’t change
And affecting things you can
Be the best in every moment
Is this wisdom
what you can be
My mantra let go
Teacher please help me see
We need support
Coaches or your best friend
Perhaps a stranger
Just a conversation
I love my grand father
I am conscious now I can let go
Am I clinging
Why am I holding on ?
Ask the question
Is this paying the rent?
So let it go
I can let go of the bad
I need to do this myself
Such a hard learn
Wasn’t it you?
I now realise it can only be me
Let go I can
And Allow other things in
If the wall is up
I can’t be open
There’s power in this letting
I think it would be good trustNigel StedmanKeymaster25/05/2020 at 7:32 pmPost count: 2
How did you come to be?
Who are you?
How are you in my life?
Are you real?
Or just my imaginary friend?
What is it that makes me want to share with you?
Wherever I am, why are you there too?
Am I lost without you?
No, that is not it
Am I better with you?
that is not it either
Why do I wonder about you?
Why do I care how you are feeling?
Why are we often apart yet can be on the same wavelength?
How do I feel your pain?
How do I feel your joy?
How do I sense things with you?
Why do I want to know the deepest feelings and memories within you?
What is this light I see around you?
Who am I?
How did our eventful and often tortured paths lead us here?
Where will this all lead?
When I thought I knew a lot, I found it was actually a grain of sand
When I thought I could plan, I was deluded
In reality, there are no direct answers
Only a truth
which explains everything and nothing
The journey and the moments, in a breath, is all that we really have
The heart is the link to it all
It knows the truth
I love youTricia La BellaKeymaster27/05/2020 at 8:37 pmPost count: 34
May 25th 2020 Expressions by the group
Love is painful
Secret love ?
Growing up with love
Brings us love
Is that love?
We use love to mean so many things
It often lessens the meaning of love
We over use the word
We under use the word
How do we say what we mean
Hi love …
Do not call me love
Do I trust the word love?
A love that loves what is
Love is self care
Love starts with yourself
Self taught me compassion
Love is word
Words are easy
Love is feeling
Feeling what ?
Love is nature
The feeling it brings
The senses are coming together
Love comes with an open heart
The heart is vulnerable
Close your heart so you don’t hurt
But then I’m sad
If I open my heart love can be felt
How can I open my heart
Come to myself first
Can I open my heart
It’s so hard to open up
We learn to close our heart
I don’t want to feel
Keep breaking your heart until it opens
The hurt is so great with pain I can not bear it
Then I miss out if I close off my heart
To love is to have pain
But I may not like it
There’s different kinds of love
When passion is there there is love
show feel it
Connect with it
Is Love eternal?
Love is beautiful
I used to love
And now i don’t
Was it love?
What is this thing called love?
So what word instead?
We say love
But is it?
You can love in a different way
Soul mate unconditional
Culture changes things
A love, a strong pull towards
I did love but don’t now?
feelings never die
Stay with us foreverTricia La BellaKeymaster01/06/2020 at 8:14 pmPost count: 34
Monday 1st June 2020 Fear
Not getting it right
What will they think?
Dying with a song unsung
I say no
It takes me a while
I go round and round
I eventually settle
My fear from needing to be perfect
Impact of needing to be perfect as a child
Damn fears I know why
What if we don’t have labels
Unlabel how powerful that way
through just expressing just as it is for us
in this moment that was captured
Chillies and all
Be yourself and be free
Wait til your father gets home
Warning of danger
I can not control it
Of not being fulfilled
What do I do
I let it be
It is a part of life
There’s beyond fear
Fear of boredom
I need to keep moving
Fear of being in the same spot
Fear of not being all of who I am
Fear of not living
Fear of losing you
Are you there Claudine?
I fear being successful
What will it being if I succeed
Fear of unsustainable
No chilies now what
Every thing is out of my control
In fear – we add to the story
Is fear the same as afraid
Is fear the same as worry
Fear of letting people down
We live with fear
Because we fear losing it
When I stopped worrying about losing
I just do what I do
Every time I build something
So many variables out of our control
There’s a lot of strain in controlling
NZ free of covid19
Then comes an earthquake
So what fear do I fear?
I fear for our world
For my kids
My kids kids
What will be there for them ?
The world is changing
I care for my family
I care for the animals
I care for our environment
How are they going to live?
I fear for what is ahead for them
What is the world going to be ?
Can our fear drive us ?
Let fear help us be active
Transform the fear and emotions to move and create
Feel the fear
The back of my neck
I hold fear in my body
What do i want?
I feel heat in my body
My fear comes with anger
My emotions come together
My fear has a character
It keeps things light
It gives me a way to calm
Fear takes my breath away
I might give it a name
Don’t let fear define me
My fears hang around but I don’t beat myself up for about it
Go for it – to overcome the fear
We have nothing to fear but fear itself
Nigel StedmanKeymaster01/06/2020 at 9:29 pmPost count: 2
- This reply was modified 4 months, 3 weeks ago by Tricia La Bella.
The poem about fear from Poetry evening 1st June 2020
Fear can be experienced;
watching Horror movies
Being in the dark
Hearing strange noises
seeing a snake close by
and it can be debilitating for some
If it is about feeling frightened
feeling your heart beat fast and loud then I have had those moments like when
being ‘in trouble’ as a child ‘wait until your father gets home…
not wanting to go home
realising that I will die…when I was 6 and…very recently
discovering I had 3 speeding fines…(another story)
Sometimes it is the something inside warning of danger,
do i listen to that within myself? (Yes)
The fear of losing someone close can be there at times
So what have I learnt about fear so far?
I cannot control or suppress it
I cannot run away from the feeling
It is not always rational
Franklin D Roosevelt once said ‘there is nothing to fear but Fear itself’
When I feel fear it seems real enough fear of not experiencing real love and being with that person, fear of not feeling fulfilled from helping others before my death
So what to do with it?
Well I accept it
I let it happen
I express it
I live it
I support others with it…
So maybe fear is not so bad after all
it can be helpful as a warning, exciting even passionate
…and the child within me still,
jumps out from behind a tree or a bush to make someone jump… (usually someone I know)
(NRS)Tricia La BellaKeymaster08/06/2020 at 10:28 pmPost count: 34
June 8, 2020 Dreams (expressed by the group)
What do dreams mean?
What are they about?
What is a dream state?
You are floating
Everyone is in the distance
It takes me back
They just can’t you see
Others can’t see me
And yet I feel it’s real
A dream – while you sleep
I dream to aspire
A dream like state
It was as if she had been lifted and transported to a green and leafy walkway, where the only sound was water tricking in the rice fields and the occasional birdcall.
Take me away
To lose focus
Take me away
Let me wonder in my mind
I felt sad. Let the dream take me to happiness.
The dream is in a bubble.
A mind bubble.
A mindless state.
Wandering in your mind
Dream about the future is wondering
I have 3 each night
What are they about?
Why do I dream of you?
The witch doctor helps sort out dreams.
There’s no control in my dreams!
Even if I want to, I can’t make things happen.
I can’t remember my dreams
Some dreams I don’t want to remember
My dream in this life
Is to touch 10,000 lives
I did this morning touch someone – she made banana fritters and her family loved them.
I dream for a world of kindness.
A better world.
You’re living the dream…
A way of living.
Bringing joy to people.
I enjoy the joy I see.
That’s my sisters name you know – Joy!
Now give me some pethidine…
When you’re in your dream you have no control
You’re somewhere else
You sit in your garden
And remember something nice from the past and let your mind go there
Do you consciously daydream?
I’m in my own state.
I feel a pull that leads me to a trance, a freeze, a relief.
Through the lens
It’s like a dream
Deep into the succulent
A personal message arrives
Soaked in immersion
Photography leads me in…
Dare to dream
Live the dream
I dreamed a dreamTricia La BellaKeymaster22/06/2020 at 7:33 pmPost count: 34
Poetry 22nd June 2020
I can’t remember jokes
Why do we laugh when things aren’t funny?
A sick sense of humour?
Dressing up makes me laugh
So why do we laugh
Sometimes it’s better to laugh than to cry
I dressed up through cancer
My scar had a smiling face and it helped me laugh
Laughter helps me cope
Best thing is to laugh it off
Laughter is a relief
Sometimes it’s a nervous response
I’d rather laugh
It gives a release
It gives me time to think through things
To laugh is to relax
To release emotions
Even inappropriately sometimes
Sometimes it strikes me as funny when it’s not the time
It can lighten me
I’m comfotrtable at laughing at myself
What about if you’re not funny
I don’t laugh that much
Yoga laughter – is it real
Smokey and the Bandit made me laugh
Movies make me laugh
I like to laugh with someone
Laughter is contagious
Laughter is the best medicine
We can we laugh in a group to stimulate each other to release –
I don’t like that
Laughter is a release of sound
Talk sex that makes me laugh
It’s Either sex or laughter
Laugh at what you don’t have
Laughter is triggered by humour
Laughter is therapy
Being more open brings me more joy
And Then I laugh more
Smile and your voice changes
Fake it til you make it
Can we laugh too much
Trust brings laughter
Just because you laugh doesn’t mean you’re ok
Laughter can mask other things
Can we see through to someone’s pain
There’s tone in laughter
Doesn’t ring true or add up – uncomfortable
You can feel it
Laughter can help put others at ease
If it’s not sincere it feels uncomfortable
Laughter for the sake of following others?
Robyn Williams a sad person who can make people laugh
You can tell your story through comedy
Even a dark story
Humour a bandaid
I wish I was funny
When you don’t try – that’s funny
Sometimes trying to be funny is not funny
Exaggeration makes it funny
Art – it’s an art
Funny at someone’s expense – is that funny?
I laugh when someone doesn’t think they’re funny
Gloias funnier than Tricia
Or when there’s an accident
Like walking into a lamp post
The cackle laugh
Is it politically correct to laugh in situations?
You could really be misunderstood with laughter…Tricia La BellaKeymaster13/07/2020 at 8:38 pmPost count: 34
There’s no time for boredom
When you can’t be with yourself
Boredom is a lived experience
How does it feel
Having nothing to do?
Is that boredom
You can be bored to death
Disinterest is that boredom
Find the way to be interested
When you feel boredom do something crazy
Kids say they’re bored
They don’t like it
Bored or difficult
Express as bored
What does it feel like to be bored
Is it a state?
When there’s no interest?
What leads someone to say it’s boring…
When it feels dull
Tone of voice – monotone
Not connected to it
What happens in your body when it’s boring
I like being bored
I can shut off
Boredom gives permission to shut off
When there’s disinterest
I go some where else
I let my imagination wonder
Into my own thoughts
I learnt to Entertain myself
If I’m bored I find something else to do
Sometimes you can sit in your body for a while until you realise and choose to move
Let boredom be
Let them be
Find their way free
Boredom is state
The weather keeps us in
Coronavirus keeps us in
Can bring boredom
Sit in boredom to think of your own way to something
This is boring talking about boredom
A lull in activity
Boredom or silence
Need to fill the gap
Break the silence
Boredom when your disappointed when plans don’t turn out
Boredom or disappointed
Boredom or meditative
Boredom or unable to find something
Are we losing our imagination – a form of intelligence
I play games that breaks the boredom
Boredom through the plains
Boredom motivator towards excitement and doing new things
The positive of boredom
Where do you go?
Go for a walk
Meditation choose to find space
Boredom may feel like it’s not your own choice – imposed
It has no meaning to me
Have to not want to
Can you do boredom
The boredom spectrum
How do you define boredom
Unpleasant leads to boredom
Too much of anything
How much of activity before
You can’t get bored painting walls – mediating / hallucinating
It’s ok to be bored
Boredom is lack of choice
Get away from boredom
It’s a yin and yang
Boredom over stimulation
Thanks Lesly for your joke to end – broke the boredomTricia La BellaKeymaster13/07/2020 at 8:47 pmPost count: 34
Why should it matter?
Whether you are or not.
So what is it?
“Success is liking yourself, liking what you do, and liking how you do it.” -Maya Angelou
Is success about achieving something?
Success, it’s more an experience of success
I don’t like it when people say I’m successful
Sometimes that comment doesn’t feel kind or genuine
It’s an inner feeling
Success is not absolute
Society has its own sense of success
Society success is loud
There’s no pass or fail
Success is relative to where I’ve come from
Celebrate for your own sense of success
Success is progress
How lovely seeing progress – that’s to celebrate
Not about the best
You can’t compare with some-one else
Define what success is before you start the game!
Don’t play dirty to win, that’s not winning
Is that winning or bullying.
When is success not winning?
What does success feel like?
Success for me is going through the Heysen tunnel
I did it!
Success is overcoming fear, anxiety.
Success is living
Success is doing what you love – having fun
Winning a position,
It’s not about the position
That’s about accolades
It’s about did you make a difference?
It’s like making Money, and still feeling empty
We didn’t celebrate success when we were young,
because success was not valued.
Some Parents push their kids to be successful
So they feel successful
So they feel good
The parents can’t, so they want their kids to do it
Success is feeling good about what you did.
If I win and others lose, how does that winning feel?
Success is knowing I’ve made a difference.
Progress rather than success.
There’s not an end
The journey is what’s important
We can’t measure the success by someone else’s success
Some want to win
But what does that mean?
There’s no such thing as success
Success – A judgement of feeling
The stress of success
Is there another word other than success?
Success is growth
The small things
Success is influenced by those around you
Success to me is happiness,
it’s not about money or possessions, it’s about life and relationships.
Success is progress and fulfillment
No expectationTricia La BellaKeymaster24/08/2020 at 4:08 pmPost count: 34
Thanks to the group, this is just as it unfolded… looking back helps you realise how rich the conversation and formation of the expression
Giving is receiving
Palms up is giving
Palms down is grounding
Receiving is an experience
An experience is when the heart is open
Receiving is when you give when your heart is open
Intention to give
Receiving from the universe
When the intention is there, you can receive
With your heart
The energy comes back to you when you give positively
Energy is what you put out – the vibration
I’m embarrassed to receive – I ‘m used to giving
Receiving can feel uncomfortable because you may not be used it
Why is it so hard to receive?
Perhaps our culture – to give and not receive
When we accept that we have done well – do we believe that we are worthy
Often we don’t feel that we are worthy
Or perhaps we think there is a need to give back
It’s OK to receive
Perhaps it’s about sincerity
or is it that it doesn’t feel real or believable
Can you feel the difference between receiving with sincerity
How do I trust so I can receive
Can I receive graciously – let the person giving feel good about giving
So can I learn to receive graciously
So maybe that is a practice to accept and receive
How can I trust when I am suspicious?
So how can I let go a little and receive – perhaps the help I need
Even when we truly need help…
We may be pushing others away.
Can’t receive when you can’t let go of what is stopping you
Can’t because you want to have full control
The down side of not receiving graciously you can push people away
So it is a balance
So how can you receive a compliment graciously
Perhaps a thank you
Receive and accept and say thank you
Perhaps it tells you something about the other person feels about you
You learn about their perspectives on you
When you are open to receive – you are more likely to see more of what is available
is this about Karma –
Out of everything we receive – even the bad,
While at first they are received – they feel as pain
After time they are seen as lessons
The pain eventually heals – the lesson of forgiveness can unfold
When you trust people first – you can go through life open,
The conscious choice to trust – may bring pain – however there is much to gain.
Without trust – your world can close up
Trust is a short cut to life
When something good comes through the door, open the door
So let go and let it happen…
Open your heart to receive,
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